Have you ever felt that you had so many problems and that your dream may be shattered? Well, I have.
That feeling when you found out you did small stupid mistakes which had a great impact really really sucks.
But I won't explain it because only when you experience the same thing that you can understand.
Well. what got me confused is that today I felt very bad at the beginning and then I stumbled and fell literally fell. It caused me the pain on my knee but suddenly I felt better. Hahaha.. Maybe there was some hormone to make me feel relax? Maybe I just felt what could go worse again? Or my brain was on my knee? I never knew. Am I a masochist? Probably.
N.B. If you have that uneasy feeling right now, I'm telling you, don't try to take any sympathy from anyone especially if he/she is a person who will say "I told you so" or "Okay, just give it up now". It will get worse.
It's better for you to get lose for a moment. Do anything that can please you until that miserable feeling is gone.